This is yours truly in her graduation robe, or graduation gown as the school calls it. Yups! I have to be special. I dont wanna look like one of the members in an African choir group. Many kept calling themselves students of Hogwarts but to me the robe looks like an African choir uniform. I dont care if you say my ribbon is too big or that I look ridiculous! I just wanted to be ME!



Out of the many pictures taken yesterday, actually only a few since I only managed to snap 37 pictures, this one means the most to me. We've been friends since 11! There was a period of 4 years or even longer when we spent most of the time questioning each other's choice of friends and behaviour. I admit that I've said the meanest things to one of her friends who I dont really approve of but she as a person or human being doesnt bother me at all. I just like to poke fun at certain people. I am human too!!!!
There were times when I felt guilty for teasing her friend, that one friend only, but when I found out that she had started to speak ill of me, I stopped feeling bad immediately. To be honest, I cant really blamed her for she was in an anti-me environment. What I was really upset over was her shallow understanding of me as her good friend in primary school.
Think it was last year when I finally cleared things up with her that I discovered how deep our misunderstanding was. The only thing I can say is that if I ever spoke ill of her then it must have been about her selection of friends.
To me, as long as I treat you like a real friend from day one, you'll always be a dear friend up to the day I die. Never mind if we lose contact or no longer see eye to eye, a friend will always remain a friend to me. That's why I get really bothered when my friends listen to others and not trust me. They are actually foolish enough to believe what others tell them. Yes, I am mean but not to my dear friends. If even I am mean to them, I do it in front of them not behind them. Whenever I dont know/understand my friends' behaviour, I would always say things like " I dont know what ***** is doing". Often enough, people who hear this misinterpret my meaning and convey the wrong message to the party I was addressing.
Sadly, after so many years, I am still not good at expressing my emotions and thoughts to others, even the closed ones.

Labels: fashion, friend, graduation

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